L Is For The Way You Look At me

Evening folks,
     It's been a while since I have updated my blog, but I have been so busy with life experiences and adventures that I really haven't had a chance to settle down and write. Finally, I have the chance to share some thoughts with you as I get ready for bed before my first day of work tomorrow!
     Tonight, I want to talk about love. An interesting topic, is it not? We go through life searching for it, and yet sometimes when we find it we do not take it seriously. There are too many quotes out there about how "It is better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all" or "All you need is love" but when we look at the facts love is and remains to be a science and an emotion that will never be able to be explained. In America the divorce rate is at 50%. We hear stories of husbands beating their wives, men and women cheating on their partners, and all of these horror stories about love and marriage. On the flip side, some of us are fortunate enough to have parents who stick together all the days of their lives, or we have siblings or friends who get married and have wonderful working marriages. What is it that makes love such an interesting topic!?
     To quote the movie Wedding Crashers "Love is the soul's recognition of its counterpoint in another." Cheesy, yes. But, it has validity. We all know we can't help who we fall in love with, and I do believe that when you make eye contact with someone or meet someone in a crowded square, you can feel such an intense attraction that you have to go speak to them. As human beings, we crave attention and companionship. I have yet to meet someone who is comfortable being alone and without a partner in life. Sure, you can argue and say, "Hey, I don't need love because I have my parents who love me, my friends who love me, and that's all I need." I don't buy it. Not for a second. Speaking from experience, there is no better feeling in the world than looking into the eyes of a beautiful woman or man, saying, "I love you" and them saying, "I love you too." Having such strong feelings reciprocated is an amazing feeling.
     For those who don't believe that love exists, or for those who believe that human beings are not monogamous, I ask you this. Deep down, in your heart of hearts, could you go through your entire life meeting and sleeping with tons of different women or men and at the end of the day lie down in your bed and say, "I can do this for the rest of my life." I don't think you can do it! Human companionship is such a strong emotion, people are naturally drawn to one another, to want to have friends or relationships so that we have someone to share our deepest thoughts and feelings with.
     Being a 22 year old man, I miss the feeling of female companionship. I look around me everyday and see happy couples holding hands, kissing, going on walks together, and I wonder if I will ever find love again. My heart has been broken twice, but as I look back on those relationships however long on short they were, I learned from them. It is so hard for me to remain confident in the fact that I will meet my future wife someday. It's so easy for us to look in the mirror and say I'm too fat, I'm too tall, I'm too short, I have weird hair, etc. We verbally bash ourselves and it tears down our self-esteem and self-confidence. The opposite sex will be attracted to you for who you are, not for who you are not.
     Even though I may have been rejected, shot down, been in failed relationships, been told "you're such a good friend, I don't want to ruin that," amongst all the other cliche lines, I still believe my Mrs. Right is out there. When will I find her? Who knows. But when I look at all the friends I have made, and all of my female friends and how beautiful they are, I have all the confidence in the world that maybe one day I won't get stuck in that friend zone.
     So my friends, I end with this. If you are married or currently in a relationship, congratulations. I wish you all the best and hope for only good things to come into your life. If you are single with me, keep your heads up! Be confident in who you are, even if that means waking up in the morning and saying, "I'm attractive, I'm smart, I'm desirable, and any woman/man would be lucky to be with me." If you have female or male friends and you are a member of the opposite sex, you obviously have the skill set to be friends with the opposite sex. Just be patient that someday you not only will find a friend, but a partner to walk the path of life with you. I just hope I find mine sooner rather than later ;)
     Goodnight everybody,
          G.S Moredock signing out.